Hahaha

Maybe I don't want kids....

tick, tock, tick, tock.

Went to a friend's house tonight to scrapbook.  She took us up to the new baby's room to look at bedding and clothes.

Le sigh.

Be Warned: This Post (might be) TMI.

I haven't written. Things got pretty crazy around here with my mom's health, and I wasn't really in the mood to write.  I was going to apologize for it, but that's the way life is.  And if I'm worried about blogging about my life instead of living my life, then I have bigger problems.

I really wanted to talk about the article I posted before.  Because I really think taking birth control pills ruined sex for me for a while.  This quote helps explain why:

The synthetic estrogen increases levels of a protein called sex-hormone-binding globulin (SHBG), which adheres to testosterone and makes it less available to the body. The result can be a crash in desire, muted orgasms, or pain during sex, according to Irwin Goldstein, M.D., director of sexual medicine at Alvarado Hospital in San Diego.

I can definitely attest to that one!  I actually wondered for a while what all the hype about sex was, because it just wasn't that fun for me.  It hurt.  If given the choice between sex and something else, I would always choose something else.

About a year or so after we were married, I had a great get-together with some friends.  The topic of sex came up, and I mentioned how un-fun it was for me.  They were very concerned for me (understandably).  After reading this article, I think maybe I wasn't so crazy.  I mean, "muted orgasms"?  Um, yeah.

As soon as I went off of the pill, sex became a lot less painful and a lot more fun.  And I realized that maybe I had been missing out for a long time!

I'll write more about this later when I have time, but here's an article I found interesting.

http://health.msn.com/health-topics/sexual-health/birth-control/articlepage.aspx?cp-documentid=100246783&gt1=31051

Feeling more pressure than ever to have a baby.

It won't be a surprise to anyone if we get pregnant now.

More Dreams

Had THE most realistic dream about a positive pregancy test last night.  So real, in fact, that I woke up looking for the test I had taken.  Couldn't find one, so I took one.


Nope, still negative.

Result

Well, it was negative.



But wow--my heart was POUNDING.  And I did look super close to see if maybe there was a little *hint* of a plus, but no.  Straight negative.


I read online, though, that you shouldn't take it after you've had a lot of liquids--which I had had.  So, I might take it again.  Tomorrow morning, when the hormones are supposed to be the most potent, or whatever.  And my friend Christy tells me that she had a negative test when she was pregnant with her first.  Maybe I'll wait until next Friday.  Don't know if I can wait, though.