Sunday, November 21, 2010

A year.

It has been a year since the day that Nick said he'd be okay with having a baby.

And wow, what has happened in a year.

I developed a legitimate alternative to teaching for a living.

I got a job, and proceeded to kick my butt to do well at it.

I lived through leukemia with my mom...twice.

And now, things are about to change again.

See, Nick just got a new job.  And this new job is based on the opposite side of the country, in LA.  Which means that starting in March, Nick will move to LA.  And then, when the school year is over, I will follow him. 

My world is rocked again.

There are so many questions/problems that this brings up (just for baby-making), it is ridiculous.
Should we put baby-making on hold until we will be together all the time?
Do I run the risk of being pregnant while Nick isn't here?  I'd be almost like a single mom!
Mom won't see me pregnant.
Mom won't be with me when I have a baby.
We won't be around ANY family or friends...who will help me through this crazy transition in life?  I always assumed I'd have more help than I needed.
We're going to be making a cross-country move...is this a good time to have a baby?
Will there ever be a good time to have a baby?