Seattle's a No Go.

Nick got the nice thanks-but-no-thanks form letter 2 weeks ago.  It took me a little bit to process how I felt about it.  But now I can truly say, I'm really sad. 

Nick is really upset about it, too.  Not quite so much now, as the sting has worn off a bit, but I don't bring it up.  He gets this deep pained look on his face.  Not something that you can really see as an outsider, but I see it in his eyes.  He's looking for other jobs now.  At the base and at some other local places, but none of them get his juices going like the Microsoft one.

I keep praying for him to be able to find something that fulfills him professionally.  He's so smart, and he's the hardest worker I know.  A company anywhere would be honored to have him.

As for me, my job position is tenuous at best.  I won't know until late July if my position will even be in existence next year--and if it is, I don't know if I want it.  This hasn't been the easiest professional year of my life, and I'm not entirely sure what caused that.  Is it that my heart is taking me away from teaching and into something else (read: photography)?  But if I do that, everyone and their mom is starting their own photography businesses right now--can I take the risk in such a saturated market?  Has it been hard because of some school situations, and the uncertainty that I've experienced?

Again, I'm not sure.  More waiting, I guess.

Still weird

I was talking with a friend tonight (hi, Pam!), and she asked, "So, how's the baby making going?"

I've gotta admit: it kind of threw me a little bit.  My first thought was, "Me?  What baby making?  I'm not making babies right now!"

Then I remembered, "Oh, right.  I am trying to make babies right now!"

It's still kind of weird to think about, since I haven't been trying for so long!

Terrible Week

On top of everything else, I got my period.  This time, I cried.

From Heavy to Light

LOVE the name...

Harper